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if you're a true friend, don't tell me how to live my life. don't judge me, don't criticize me, just be a friend and stand by me and the person that i am. so please, don't ever try to afflict me with your harsh words on my sense of living, cause in reality, it's my decisions and my actions that counts, not yours. when it really comes down to it, it's all about how I want to live MY life-it's simply my life
when i am happy
you laugh with me. when i am angry you let me be. when i am sad you dry my tears. when i am scared you ease my fears. when i am lonely
you stand at my side.
when i've needed advice you have have never lied. when i need help
you give me your all. when i need to talk you always call. when i need encouragement you always come through and when i need support, well, you give me that too.
you are a great friend and i love you so. i thought i should tell you that just in case you didn't know.
sorry guys, no cookie..just me :P yes, welcome to my *daily journal* aka pita! prepare to enter my mind *laughs* :) well, read and enjoy folks! continue to come here! i would like to say "thanks" to vy! *hugs* who helped me start up this pita cause linda is such a complete computer spaz! i <3 my early birthday gift! thank you. however, i have taught myself a few nic nacs as you can see :) i am continuing to learn that wacky world of html codes. if i fail miserably, i will come arunnin' to you once again vy :) <3,
linDaLy
there is soo much a person can intake and isolation is what is inhabited by many people but you must know that there are people out there that care for you, that <3 you and simply want to be there for you so why not let them in..? who knows? they might help change your tomorrow. now, wouldn't that just be the greatest thing? :)
a false smile is seen from afar, but soon that smile can no longer hold its position and it fades so what happens then? you're left alone thinking that the world is locking you out when it's you that locks the world out but never fear cause someone out there cares for you. there's always someone out there that cares..so never say "no one gives a damn."
thank you. you know who you guys are. you’re very speshul to me! only a selected few have done what you’ve done. people who’ve protected me. people who’ve watched out for me endless times. people who’ve been my constant support givers and shoulders :) i've been through a helluva lot, but you there just makes me tres content. i've never had friends like you guys. names are not of much importance but you should know if you have contributed a huge impact on my life. i know this is quite cheesy but my pita isn’t complete without this: i <3 you all, really, i do. never in a million years would i think i would find people like you guys.
~linDaLy
~seventeen (tres young still)
~september 24, 1984
~cambodian and 1/4 chinese (i look vietnamese though)
~pinkcheekers, yes, i do have pink cheeks; am widely known for 'em :P
~libra
~strengths: very faithful, talkative
~weaknesses: too trustworthy, indecisive
~oldest
~5 sisters
~2 brothers
~mom is the best mom
~baba is a major jerkface to me; as you can tell, i’m not all that fond of my father.
~independence high school graduate
~UC Davis student soon to be
~major: biological sciences
~pediatrician
~one <3ing husband, 3 kids, a golden retriever :)
~<3s horoscopes.
~<3s praying.
~<3s reading.
~<3s don's famous pineapple 2% only alcohol drink thing :P
~<3s jamba juice.
~<3s dance: taken modern and jazz :D
~<3s sour gummy bears but i won't share it with my other sour gummy bears <3er ives! :P all mine!
~<3s music by jimmyeatworld, hoobastank, avril lavigne and michelle branch (others as well), they're all very awesome :)
~<3s watching the practice, gilmore girls, smallville, scrubs, ER, will & grace, friends, designing women (yes, i know how old it is but i still enjoy watching this comedy sitcom)
~my mom is my idol; though, she nags, i look up to her with great admiration
~lisa is my coolest galpal! always, you'll be with me in spirit, near or far. i <3 you hun! *muah* my spiffy partner in crime :P who’ve done great wonders to my wacky life.
~mags is my notorious twin, my "linda!" she makes me feel better with her many witty, "you can't help but crack up" remarks! :D i <3 my twin! *converses rocks!*
~ives (ivan) is my coolerest guy galfriend, hunkymonkey, evon, dorkhead, my illiterate iCan, geez, lots of stuff huh? well, once a best friend and always a best friend :)
~frank's the best! he's my frives and he is also a hornball :P
~don gave me the honorable duty as his listening budd-E; he's my papa! i miss you mucho. be good down in l.a. okay?
~janice is my victim; she's whom i stalk :P yes, jimbo's lady is quite hot huh? :)
~wai sau lends me her relationship wisdom and she is also very hot! :D
~peter is my jamba juice hookup and my stinky sock!
~thuy is my counselor and my homie :) i <3 you very much!! thank you for everything! words can’t express my gratitude. thank you for changing me for the better.
~kristel is my sexai kristel! thanks for your many compliments!
~bien is my dogg huh fool? :) (even though you can be mighty mean to little ol' me!)
~tam drives me nuts you wacko, literally!! :P almost killed me! where's my calculator fool?! :)
~christian is whom i <3 to smack and hit around :D but he keeps my smile painted on with his many jokes.
~christina is whom i have weird coincidences with *shivers* :)
~vy's the creator of this site! he is also a great guy with a great sense of humor which i am going to miss very much.
~a true christian @ <3
~fears dogs but wants to have one some day :)
~can't wait for college
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hmm, i knew this would happen. it seems every time i plan things or attempt to do something..it never happens..hmm, tres weird. not just this whole trying to stay up and stuff, but other stuff too........ anyhoo, kinda confused right now. but is that something new?! haha. and a bit worried, or should i say, really worried..and i don’t know what to do but i guess pray my lil <3 out. rally is today..*sniffles* so i have to go out and buy a disposable camera! J i was going to wear shorts today but lookie @ the weather right now! it is windy! *pouts* :P tina and i and cool now. :D and we actually have about a minute and 18 seconds down! woohoo! @ first, we were really off! but with practice yesterday, it actually looks really cool..haha. well, not REALLY! but cool haha. , i don't have a lot to do! haha i mean, i have sooo much stuff on my "to-do" list! but no calculus final today! we've been having it for three days straight this week /")(" and nope! we are not done yet, we still have three, torturing calculus final left. ahhhhhh! i have a sub for government and english! yayee!!! physics...i am soo behind..didn't do my packet or research paper! so this weekend, i HAVE to work. last weekend, i didn't work..well, cause saturday was prom and then, yunno, it happens...haha different story this weekend! oh no! i have to go get contacts b4 graduation!! :D alrighty people, i have to go get dress to go with my baBa to the store to get disposable cameras haha and get donuts!!!! YuUuUUum! lots of pictures!!!! :D
thank you, thank you *takes a bow* i did it! well, i went to sleep @ 9, woke up @ 10:30. thought, heck not, let's go til 11..haha instead, woke up @ 1:30 am, but that's not a complete misfortunate. peter's right. i don't just ask questions for no reason. haha. there is always more to my questions. but sometimes, it's just for the heck of it-stuff that has been on my mind for a long awhile or just cause nerdbutt is plain intrigued by it. i'm getting closer, yet mucho confused in the process. is that worth it? haha. :) i hope so! if not, it's gonna be really bad. but most likely, it is cause it feels like it is. did that make sense? i am horrible! two research paper and i haven't touched a thing! ahhhhh!! i think i just plain don't want to do it so i always put it off..grr, that's bad! i'm sleepy! i would <3 to write more in this, but nerdbutt is sleepy and she could feel her energy ceasing..damnit, i want tp go to sleep for a LITTLE bit longer! ohh noooo! she can't! that's a trap! :P haha. have a great day today! i'm gonna be up til whenever! no choice :) but i'll come by before i leave for school..just for you all! do people even read my pita? oh well, it's for me anyways :)
okay, this has been my second attempt to pull another all-nighter. sadly, nerdbutt failed horribly! i NEED to do this. i have to stay up ALL night just once so i can do all my stuff. it's tiring! cause then, i wake up and become really restless and i think "no, linda! you can't sleep! you fell asleep! now, it's time to work your toosy off!" grr..:P things are okay, just really hot lately. haha, but it's nearing summer so it's reasonable that it's hot. duh linda! haha. i got lots of stuff from UC Davis. mainly, housing stuff and yup..:) it's all exciting, yet rather scary.. for jazz, we have to choreograph a dance. the thing is, i like to do all the work. i sort of want it my way so i always volunteer to do ALL the work! i was talking to marchand last year once and he said, "well, that's your fault. don't volunteer to do it all." he actually called me stupid haha. i know that's a bad habit and i should learn to be a team player. but i am! it's just..i cringe when things aren't perfected. yes, linda is your very own critic and perfectionist. i was kidding, but i think tina thought i was being serious; i said, "shut up.." as a joke and i guess it didn't come out that way. we're always like that. now, i feel terrible so i think i'm going to go apologize to her first thing tomorrow when i see her. working in groups is not always fun..you have the good times and not so good... lisa and i are drifting but what's new? everyone that seems to be close to me is drifting..:( but i can deal, i hope.
all this prom crap is making me think. i think a lot of realizations are hitting everyone. i think i was bummed about prom and i got vy to get bummed about it too! darn, nerdbutt just had to send out her negative karma out *slaps self* but it's okay, it kind of opened my eyes to a better thing. never thought i would ever feel this way and i don't know what to do with this feeling? do i just i don’t know, keep it in and just hope it would go away or do i do something useful with it? nerdbutt is really confuse when it comes down to it. i mean, i've tried a million ways and i guess, i gotta do what a nerd's gotta do. but it's true, i've sunk haha but no, i'm not drowning! i'm tired. very sleep deprived! haha. well, no, just i don't want to do anything. i think as the year is winding down, my brain just doesn't want to function properly. i got into UC Davis and i'm rather content and please with that. but it's scary people! in matter of months, we're all gonna be college kids...*shivers* little regrets get into my head. and i wonder, hmm, if nerdbutt and dorkhead hadn't done anything and remained best friends, would we still have the closeness? i mean, we both still have a bond, i guess. we've been through soo much and our friendship has survived so i'm hoping our speshul bond is still intact. we need some quality time. :) haha come on now! he can check out girls with me! we can do it together *laughs* he's there but i still overwhelmingly miss him. it's weird but i <3 weird and i <3 the weird person that he is cause that's who i've gotten to know and adore haha. :) it saddnes me that knowing him over a year isn't enough :( i'm going to miss him. who's going to watch my back, warn me about all those "other guys," be right about every damn thing! :P but still, he's changed... we actually had an online conversation about it, a discussion you can call it. he wanted to know how he's changed so he could improve and that night, nerdbutt helped her dorkhead. :) it was great cause i could see a little bit of me in him. the whole "like" and gosh...haha sounded so familar *smiles* that's what we're all about though. ever since we've known each other, we've always tried to help resolve problems together. actually, he’s helped me, from guy problems to family problems to even school stuff. haha. he danced for my decades. i remembered jenn made me ask a guy. i thought of alex ( cause i did have a wee-little crush on him @ the time ) but i knew he wouldn't ever dance for us so i turned to the guy that would <3 to give a helping hand. yesiree, ives. and i think, from that point on, i realized he was a great guy and i started seeing him more as a friend. @ one point, jenn was teaching him this move and i was just looking @ him making a complete idiot out of himself. *laughs* never has a guy friend done that for ME and i betcha he’s never danced that for any other girl…heh, i hope not. :) while looking @ that dork, jenn cried out, "hello linda?! stop looking @ ivan! pay attention to the moves!" *laughs*. what a great memory. as i was looking @ him, i just kind of smiled and laughed to myself and thought, "what a great guy? who would have the guts to make a stupid idiot out of himself?" *laughs* not alex apparently *smiles* yes, i do have great memory! haha
prom was nice. :) i had fun, yeah, something hit me that night too. i think it's a good thing though and nope, i won't reveal it so ha! :p um, i'm soo sore and tired right now, but i'm going to try and talk about yesterday :) the night before prom, i had a huge fight with my parents and i was supposed to go get my shoes, purse and umm...undergarment *laughs* oh, by the way, when i tell people that i need to get a thong, they laugh..hmm hahah :) my mom had some problemss with me sleeping over @ don's house. but i mean, @ two in the morning, i don't want to go anywhere, don't want to move, don't want to do anything! so she threatened. she said, "if you go to his house, then i won't buy you anything, i won't take you to get your stuff." i was like grr! i wanted to cry! so that night, i was stressing out! but thuy was there! and she tried to calm me down and help me out. she's the best! she offered to pick up extra flowers for my hair, lend me shoes and her necklace! THANK YOU!! she took off some weight off my shoulders. the next morning, i relaxed a bit. then i got ready for my hair appointment @ 10 and my mom was mad and, surprisingly, she kept her threat. i said madly, "i have my appointment @ 10! you need to go get dress!" and she replied, "i told you!! i'm not going to take you anywhere if you’re gonna sleep over there!" i know most teenagers would just go "fine!" and avoid having a fight on prom day but there was a bigger issue! i said, "well, if you can't let me go for ONE night, then you can't handle me going away for college!" then, we got into a WHOLE BIG fight and we both started crying. i was crying like SOBBING when you can't hold it in anymore and gosh! then, finally, she got ready and took me to oakridge mall. er! i had teary eyes! i was late for my appointment and it got canceled! cause someone @ my house said "this is linda" and said "no, i'm not coming" stupid person! but luckily, they got me in :) and she did my hair and everyone was like "it's cute!" but i thought it was ehhh. then, bad thing! my mom had to pay and it came down to 55 bucks..then, i walked to go get my makeup done and she asked "where are you going?!" and i said, "makeup" and she said, "what?! you can do your own makeup!" damn! i mean, yeah, fight when we're @ home, not in public and crap! and then the chick there said, "oh, it's free if you want, you don't need to buy the two items" and i said, "it's free Ma" and she said, "nothing is ever free" grrr!! then, after, she said, "well, if it's free, i'm going to wait in the car. OMG! yeah, and i just started to cry. the people there were really nice. so i was walking around the mall with my hair and makeup done..and i felt really awkward. i went out the wrong exit and since i'm not used to oakridge mall, i walked around the building forever! i looked like a pathetic loser! ahh! i found the car finally! went home, took some of the makeup off cause i like a simple, not a lot of makeup look. thuy called and when she came by, she was like "your makeup is simple" she got my flowers! and i put them in my hair just to add a little something but i didn't like my hair! it looked soo weird! my mom asked if i needed shoes and i said no..and she went to go get me a purse and yeah. tien came late..we got lost for an hour. came to school, took pics with lots of ppl..i didn't have my camera cause duh..fight with my parents so yeah. kristel whispered to me "you look really pretty" and i said thanks..you too haha. um, after, i was just dead! ask anyone who went to don's house after, nerdbutt was flat out on the floor SLEEPING! and everyone was mentioning about it, going "and she's up again!" haha. peter, kristel, johnhan, and i slept over @ don's house and yup..don was our big daddy haha. and don said, "someone was snoring! but that didn't wake up linda!" and kristel said, "aww..linda, you’re such a cutie!!" and i just groggled...hahaha. :) i’m a cutie! *blushes* we watched the others in the morning and don took me home :) overall, it was a cool night..hope all my pictures turned out okay. everyone kept saying "linda! you’re so quiet! talk!!" i kept saying, "i’m always quiet!!" but i think it was nerdbutt being tired too
i feel bad that i'm backing out and i'm tired of people like bien who thinks all this crap about me flaking out when he doesn't know the whole damn story! sorry, people, but i am soo not in the mood to deal with other shit and i don't care if people think i'm a stupid b*tch who is flaking out cause i have much more things to worry about then senior prom...gosh! and yes, i did promise but not to tien, i promised myself i would try..and before things got out of hand, i said, yes, i was going for sure. now things has come up and no, i'm not going. and if i'm ditching the prom and tien because i have to take care of my own crap and make sure i get everything right and that makes me a bad guy, so be it.. so please, don't ask me about prom, don't mention prom to me, don't talk about me behind my back about how shitty i'm being, i get that enough from my family and another road taken is no what i want..so just mind yer own damn business..if yer not my date, why ask if i'm not going to the prom, why even care?! the last person i need to explain and defend myself to is people who think i'm a stupid flake.. well, sooooorrry for having my own shit, sorry for having to step out of this happy happy mood and deal with it and take care of my own needs... i'm only damn human
i should have said, "no, i can't go." i wasn't planning on going to the prom so i thought i would be spending a typical saturday night. then, tien asked, and it turned into a maybe cause i thought i should go to prom since i would have regrets. i guess, it was everyone's words that had an effect on me. everyone was saying i would regret it if i didn't go. so in a way, it was as though i got pushed into going. then the maybe turned into a yes and that's when everything went wrong..soo wrong. bad omens appeared. yeah, i could take coincidences but not when it happens over and over again! example, ordered a dress, not available so ordered another dress like 3 weeks ago..a week and a half later, found out it was no longer in stock! and it was the dream prom dress..i didn't get shoes, no purse and most importantly, no dress! so i had to do all my thing last minute this weekend..BAD! cause all the good dresses are taken..all sizes too big...ugly ones. bad! shit happened. things got in the way. you all have no idea how sorry i am. but my life is a piece of crap okay? things are always in my life that's blahy! so i can't change it and divert my path..it just happened and i'm soooo sorry tien..i really am. but from the beginning, it was all one big sign screaming @ me not to go! and @ this point, today just verified it for me..today is not only a disastrous day but another day-something supposedly speshul *sighs* i couldn't help it. it's not my fault. christina once said, "so? it's not your fault." when i told her i might not being go to prom. nerdbutt s c r e w e d up B I G time....and i feel absolutely horrible...just soo bad today.
went to the IndepenDance concert again last night. haha and they did a better job. it was a full house and people were actually cheering and stuff unlike opening night. haha. yuuuup. i carried my big sketch book along, but i didn't sketch much cause i don't really like people hovering over my shoulder and watching me. i guess i'm not confident in myself and my artwork which brings me to another problem. :) i am a bit more confident in myself THIS year..so yeah, i guess that's a good thing. yesiree, nerdbutt is still stubborn and i don't want to initiate anything now and i'm scared. why am i scared?! just a lot of stuff. scared the world will turn on me. scared that hate will get in the way and i'll lose all that i have so precious to me, yunno? then, i ask myself, why the hell did i let it happen to begin with?! it's not regret @ all, it's just what if's. i hate what if's! haha going to go get my prom stuff this weekend or try to. i need my shoes, jewelry, purse and dress!! need to make my appointments and stuff..i'm scared! i don't want to waste soo much money :( but i'm pretty okie dokie with the idea of having a blast although, truth be told, i'm not excited about it much haha. everyone is all jumping up and down and just excited..me, nada man. but it's okay thuy is right, i'm confused! she told me draw it out..cause i'm drawing now but even that has memories attached to it. it's not like i want it to happen! it just does, maybe this is God's way of telling me something, i don’t know! where is m spiffy partner lisa?! :P
it's been quite an okay week. today, went to michael's to pick up a few things. needed stuff for my art thing for french. gosh. i remembered doing those last year and just going all out crazy and people would awe and Ooo @ my stuff. now,i'm just blah! :) down there @ michael’s, i also got the opportunity to buy this huge sketch book which i have been meaning to get for awhile. yup, i’m just going to be carrying it around with me from time to time :) i'm going to just sketch which is great cause i <3 art but, it brings a huge weight over my <3. drawing and using my hands reminds me of art class and art class reminds me of summer school and it just brings me to tears. when you realize it was great back then and now, you look @ your life and it's “ “ i need something to fill that empty space and for now, it’s going to be my art book :) i miss my life then, how i was happy, how for once in my lifetime, i had everything going so right *sniffles* it really does brings me to tears and watching this felicity episode makes me cry more! :P how one girl would give up so much for one guy. wow, i think i'm that type of chick. well, not really, i don’t think i would sacrifice THAT much :P for one guy! i bought a scrapbook so i'm going to start that project soon.
hey all! yeah, life's okie dokie and it's much more easier which i'm <3in. oh yeah, happy mother's day guys! :) sometimes, there are really great guys out there and then, there's the jerkface ones and other times, there are those guys that belong in an inferior group all their own. okay, glad i got that off my chest haha..my wee-little chest...haha, but it's okay. can't be satisfied with your looks right? just be confidence and the world will see what yer made of. i've learned a couple of things. people's word do and can have a dramatic effect on you and it's those little remarks that kill people's spirit bit by bit. *frowns* i hate how the world is though. frank said, "you guys are gay! haha" leave it to frank to say those enduring words, huh? :P but i guess we are huh frank? doode, frank thinks everyone is gay haha. him and his tiny chinese eyes! *laughs* but he is tres a hottie :) aww..haha even though he can't see where he's walking :P "you really gotta stop assuming" okay, wise words? i do seriously!
simple as that. :) but i guess stupidity hits us all @ times. i'm relieved! AP exams are over for ME. i'm all done with tests and yayee! now, i can concentrate on finals and maybe relax a bit. all my exams were pretty easy, not completely sure i passed them all heh :) thuy and i went to go see the IndepenDance concert friday night. i thought they did a great job, it wasn't as good as last year's but overall, i enjoyed it. bobby is soo adorable heh i <3 his "whip it! whip it good!" heh. everyone did a great job and props to them all. :). life's okie dokie. trouble with the folks but i guess that's nothing new..just when you get into little argument, you get disappointed in yourself and you think you’re such a bad example of the typical asian daughter, but it's okay. i still <3 my parents, it's just they don't get it... note: why am i this way? i'm soooo sorry...but you just don't get it..
it seems it’s been since forever since i wrote in here, when in actuality, it's only been what? one day? *shrugs* i'm here now. heh. well, i'm tres tired. but i'm gonna type my lil heart out and talk about my day here. :) the AP Calculus exam was easier than i had expected it would be. ms. sanders was so freaking us out! ahhh! but i guess it was doable. i studied for an hour or more the night before and tomorrow, i have a french exam which i am not even going to bother cramming for; there is no way i will get a three on it. i'm still waiting for my prom dress..ahhh!! i'm scared! i've been showing it to people and they say it's really nice. however, nice ain't cheap. heh :D must get to studying now, have a great night guys!
i have to admit, this weekend was really crummy and everything went terribly wrong. it was all one big whole gigantic sign. i don’t know. then, ives was just there and it kind of helped me even though he hella pissed me off! this is the guy that knows how to make me laugh, happy, cry but also knows which buttons to push i didn't ask for him to be there and i didn't need him there for me-it kind of just happened. i didn't exactly tell him what was wrong. in fact, i didn't tell anyone what was wrong with me. but ives was just being my coolerest guy galfriend. yes, the title is gay but i gave it to him and he and i both know it's speshul. :) yes, he IS my guy galfriend and that's all we are! it was a year ago that we were really best friends, wowe, my first best guy friend. i never had that :) but we both agree that it was one of our bestest friendships sooo score! it's great how even though, we broke up and we've been through hella crap, we still have manage to still keep in touch and just joke and stuff.
this whole prom thing is eh. everything is like blah, it's all one big sign that i shouldn't go for whatever reason it may be, fate doesn't want me to go. did that make sense? it's just the signs are there. when i had visited notre dame, i just overcame with this weird feeling that this wasn't what i wanted and it was a sign. that's when i looked @ UC Davis and really thought that was the best choice for me and everything worked out. it's not that far from san jose and odessa and janice are going; people that i actually know and odessa and i might be roommates so that would be cool so me changing my mind was the best thing that happened to me. the dress i want is not in stock so what the hell am i supposed to do? this is all just one big sign: i shouldn't go to prom. f*ck, i don’t like this weekend one bit.
it's a mixture of warmth and coldness today. i hate this all. i don't want to talk to anyone, not even online, cause people could see the difference with me even online. this is all one bad sign. went into the car in the garage and starting crying..the end. i don't want to share anymore.
err...i'm having an anger prob. it's coming back again. i hit everything cause i get soo frustrated @ this family. *sighs* "just four more months linda" mags said.
life's good. nerdbutt is tired...hmm, i don’t know why i use nerdbutt and people don't ask. um, must find a new prom dress. tired, very, very tired. going to hunt for a prom dress and then go nap and then wake up and do homework. tomorrow is AP testing. yikes.
it seems like this week is going by soo slow or maybe cause i don't want it to end. by god, we have six weeks remaining. i have about five months until i move into UC Davis which is great cause who knows what could happen in that five months. i got some stuff planned for my summer. i need to take a summer school course @ evergreen. taking english 1A with mags. nicole is planning to take summer school there too and we're all going be working @ oakridge so yup. life's going. trying to act as normal as possible..
hey guys. well, today was an okay day. i didn't get my prom ticket yet...i guess i can get it @ lunch or after school. *frowns* doesn't matter as long as i get it. i haven't bought a dress yet. nada yet. and i can't do any of prom stuff this weekend cause i have AP exams to cram for. calculud-i can handle. french..ehh. i'm tired. but i got a lot of sleep last night and i stopped wearing makeup. well, not fully. just not much. it's a great feeling. i don’t know why, maybe, it’s cause i can feel my real face! *laughs* but i’m sticking with the whole “less is better” motto. :) my parents are being nice which is really great and i <3 them for being understanding to my needs and yet, i can't help but feel really guilty. my dad got one of his comp buds to order me a laptop and i can't wait! :D and he's going to get me a new car and all this junk. i don't want to even bring up prom dress and stuff...*sighs* my mom keeps calling me "child" in cambodian which i <3 cause in this family, we're not really affectionate heh. anyhoo, life's great. :) just a bit tired my grades are yucky..haha in physics class, chirahu copied my test...haha. if you ask around, i am not a cheater. i get really guilty about stuff like that. i didn't do any cheating! she just looked @ my paper so it was her okay?! haha. gosh! i can't wait to have a family. i mean, i just want that life! i don't want to go to college and all that stressful junk. i want to just have a nice home, with a great husband and three kids and yup *sighs* i know people say that it's going to be hard trying to become a doctor and i know but i'm up for the challenge. :) |